明心见性
【2024.01.01_明心见性】
在过去一年，看到不少年轻人、名人为了终结「内心」的苦痛而选择「自杀」，我小时候也曾有过三次自杀的念头。当时的我觉得自己到底做错了什么，为何会降生于这个没有爱的家庭？无论自己多用功读书，为何没有老师赏识自己？一直孤独的活著，对未来的人生充满绝望，觉得活著还有什么意义，不如提早了结吧！
最终胆怯战胜了心魔，好不容易活到成年。进入五浊恶世的社会后，因为无法认同主流的社会文化、大众的道德伦理、办公室的潜规则，所以于过去的二十年间不停靠著转换工作，希望能找到一处心之所向的绿洲，可是终究是失望的！早几年前，抑压已久的情绪在身体突然爆发了，让我不得不正视自己的身心灵健康。
自此，我便踏上自我疗愈的旅程，透过自修心理学、哲学、佛学、禅修，一步一脚印地与身心连结，因而觉知到纵使我没有金钱、没有地位、没有美貌，我也是有活著的意义与价值，只是一直被凡尘俗事所迷惑和误导，障碍了自身的佛性与智慧。现在我的心清明了，没有过去的苦痛与磨难，也没可能成就今日的觉醒。因此希望藉著自己的画作与文字引领受苦的众生，走上「明心见性」的觉悟之路。
In the past year, I have seen many young people and celebrities choose "suicide" in order to end their pain of suffering. I also had a thought of committing suicide three times when I was a child. At that time, I questioned myself what I had done in my past life to make me born into this loveless family? No matter how hard I study why there was no teacher praise me? I had been living very lonely, full of despair about my future life, and felt that there was no point in living, so it was better to end my life earlier!
In the end, timidity defeated my inner demons and finally lived to adulthood. After entering the chaotic society, I could not agree with the mainstream of social culture, public morals and ethics, and the unspoken rules of the office, I kept changing jobs in the past twenty years, hoping to find a job that I wanted to do, ultimately it is disappointing! A few years ago, under long-suppressed my inner-self, emotions burst out in my body unexpectedly, which forced me to face up my physical, mental and spiritual health.
Since then, I have embarked on a journey of self-healing. Through self-study in psychology, philosophy, Buddhism, and meditation, I have getting connected with my body and soul deeper and deeper. As a result, I have realized that even if I have no money, no social position, and no good appearance, I definitely have meaning of living, before I have been confused and misled by the mundane things, which hinders my own nature and wisdom. Now my heart is clear, without the pain and suffering of the past, it would not be possible to achieve today's awakening. Therefore, I hope to use my paintings and words to guide suffering sentient beings on the path to enlightenment of "clear minds and seeing nature".